2004-12-20
Couple of Things
Couple Things
Cheatedwife and I have traded a couple of notes back and forth and she got me thinking about a few things I thought I would share in the Diary.
The first thing is that I am sure that if I told my wife that I really just needed to cum, that she would oblige. This is not a weapon that she is holding over me and just won’t do it; she just has no interest in it. I am sure that I could force myself upon her, but that is not what I want. I made reference in one note to Cheatedwife to Cheap Trick’s Song “I Want You to Want Me”. For those of you who have not heard it in a while or are unfamiliar, the refrain goes:
I want you to want me.
I need you to need me.
I'd love you to love me.
I'm beggin' you to beg me.
I don’t want her to have sex with me out of duty or pressure; I want her to desire me as much as I desire her. I just want her to want to make love again. That is likely the hardest part is accepting that she just has zero desire for me or anyone (well, except maybe Josh Duhamel). Trust me when I say that I know that she knows it is important to me. Any sort of ultimatum or big pressure push is not going to take me where I want to go.
The second thing I wanted to document was that we had a great Saturday morning. All three kids slept trough the night and slept late, so we had a few precious moments in bed together in the morning. My hands did get to explore some territory that has recently been off-limits. It was nice to be able to touch and explore without getting immediately shot down. I think things might have progressed if the magic spell holding the little ones in bed had not been broken. She told me later on in the day that she felt “a little better in the morning” when she was not so tired and liked what I was doing to her that morning. So as I am the eternal optimist, I have my calendar circled for January 1st and 2nd, 2005 as the older two kids are staying with Grandma that night and we will have the time (and god willing she will have the desire) to leisurely play in bed in the morning. We are a week and a half away, but my fingers will be crossed until that time….
The only other thing I wanted to say was that Christmas Break is here for the area colleges. The parking lot at my health club was packed and once I found an open treadmill and surveyed the scene, I realized that the college co-eds had arrived back home and were getting in a workout. I know my taste in women has definitely broadened, however, the cute, fit co-eds working out at the club will definitely always have a special place in my heart!
One more thing, a cool feature in Dland that I really have overlooked is the favorite entry function. I have had an entry from Phangasm listed as a favorite for a while, but my love affair with Piper continues and I would recommend this entry to everyone. About half way through she starts to talk what she loves about men. It makes me proud to be a man!
For those of you leaving early this week for a long Christmas nap, Merry Christmas!
-- rockabillie at 1:52 p.m.